Trapped in My Thoughts: Hamna’s True Story of Overthinking Disorder

Final Part is Out: How I Finally Silenced My Overthinking.

Hamna’s Mind Trap Escape Rooms: Why Can’t I Stop Overthinking?

Hamna sat on the university bus; her mind trapped in a relentless cycle of thoughts. Every memory of yesterday’s humiliation replayed like a broken record, hammering at her skull. Overthinking consumed her.

She pressed her palms against her temples, whispering to herself,

"Enough, stop! I don’t want to think anymore. My head will explode. What’s done is done, I want to forget it all."

But the laughter, the taunts, and the cruel jabs of her classmates refused to leave her mind. The weight of their mockery felt unbearable.

A sharp honk snapped her out of her thoughts. Heart racing, she hurried up the dorm stairs, flung open her room door, and collapsed onto the bed, sobbing uncontrollably.

"Why does this always happen to me? I only ever try to be kind!" she whispered, shaking with frustration.

A Glimpse into Darkness: Breaking Free from Mockery and Toxic Rivalry

Her roommate, Amal, entered and froze at the sight. "What’s wrong? Did something happen?" she asked, concern written across her face.

Hamna lashed out, words spilling uncontrollably: "Don’t pretend to care! You’re just like them. I have no one, no one at all!"

Amal, recognizing the storm of emotions, tried to calm her down. "Fine, think whatever you want of me, but at least tell me what’s going on. Are you upset about yesterday’s project?"

"Stop acting as if you care! Where were you when they were mocking me? You were there, but you didn’t stand up for me. It was me against ten of them!" Hamna shouted, tears streaming down her face.

Amal sighed softly."Hamna, you should’ve at least told me. You shouldn’t have taken on such a huge task alone."

Wiping her eyes, Hamna stood up, her voice trembling. "Tell me, can I even trust you? Should I trust anyone at all?"

Amal stepped closer, understanding her pain. "I’m sorry. I’ll be more careful from now on."

Hamna’s overthinking had taken over her mind, but in that room, she finally felt the faintest trace of understanding, a small step toward healing.

Hamna endured endless mockery.

👉 Read our blog on Surah Al-Kausar: 3 Verses – Turning Centuries of Quraish Mockery into a Stress-to-Blessed Spiritual Journey

The Moment Hamna Faced Envy, Inside Out: The Project

It all began when Miss Maria assigned Hamna’s group a crucial 20-mark project, one that could heavily impact their final portfolio. The shocking part? The deadline was set for the very next day.

Hamna froze, glancing at her group, expecting urgency, but instead, they laughed, absorbed in their own chatter. When she urged them to start immediately, one casually shrugged:

"Relax, it’s no big deal. We’ll just come to university for two minutes tomorrow and get it done."

No one stayed. Hamna was left alone, fully aware of how critical this project was for everyone’s grades. Feeling hurt that her so-called friends didn’t stand by her, she took charge and completed the project herself.

An early lesson in resilience, responsibility, and how envy and negligence among peers can quietly disrupt harmony and productivity.

Hamna's Silent Struggles

“Determined and focused, she completed the entire project all by herself. The next day, when her classmates finally arrived, they casually remarked,

Oh, you finished it? Cool! Impressive, not that we expected anything.

When the project was submitted and accepted with full marks, Hamna looked at them, hoping for even a small acknowledgment.

Instead, they acted as if nothing had happened and immediately started asking about the next assignment.

She realized how emotions like envy can silently destroy peace.

Understanding the 5 signs of envy and jealousy that drain your energy can help you identify toxic behavior early. 👉 Read our detailed psychological and Islamic guide to protect your peace and mental well-being.

Cold Shoulders & Cruel Words Hurt: The Signature Move of Toxic People Traits

Cold shoulders and cruel words are often the signature moves of toxic people, subtle at first but deeply damaging over time.

Hamna’s mind was overflowing. Back in the dorm, she finally said what she had been holding in for days. In the group chat, she confronted them, pouring out every bit of hurt and frustration she had silently endured.

“Where were you all when I was working alone? Who put in the blood, sweat, and tears to get us full marks?”

For a moment, standing up for herself felt empowering. But the relief didn’t last. Overthinking crept in sharp, heavy, relentless.

“Did I do the wrong thing? How will I face them? I shouldn’t have spoken my heart out.”

Regret swallowed her whole. Like many victims of toxic behavior, she felt guilty for defending herself.

The next day, she chose peace over pride and decided to apologize.

But instead of understanding, she was met with emotional neglect and the cold shoulder.

They ignored her completely.

One girl said mockingly to another, loud enough for Hamna to hear:

“Look at her, acting all high and mighty. She just brown-nosed the teacher to become her favorite. She ruined her own image by bragging about her so-called ‘hard work."

The cruel words cut deeper than she expected. Shame washed over her. The whispers, fake laughs, and public humiliation became unbearable; classic toxic people traits meant to isolate, belittle, and silence.

Psychology Research on Toxic People's Traits

Research shows that constant exposure to toxic social environments can severely impact mental health.

According to the Journal of Social and Clinical Psychology (Leary, 2015)

Individuals who experience social rejection or consistent negative feedback from peers are more likely to develop heightened anxiety, rumination, and overthinking, which can lead to reduced self-esteem and withdrawal from social interactions (Leary, 2015).

Hamna’s experience reflects this phenomenon: repeated mockery and lack of support intensified her self-doubt, illustrating how toxic group dynamics can amplify mental stress.

Hamna was crushed. The shame was overwhelming. The never-ending noise of their taunts and jokes was exhausting. She began to believe she was the problem.

Her self-confidence hit rock bottom. She was one of the university's top students, but now she felt worthless. Girls only came to her when they needed help, but no one cared about her feelings. Only Amal listened, but no solution was in sight.

Guidance of a Mentor: Overthinking Solutions in Islam

One day, the librarian who had always been kind and observant noticed Hamna sitting alone, lost in sorrow. She quietly approached and gently asked,

"What’s troubling you, dear?"

Hamna hesitated for a moment, then poured out everything she had been holding inside.

"Miss, I feel like I’m the problem. My thoughts are drowning me. I want to break free, but I don’t know how."

The librarian sighed softly, stood up, and returned with three treasured Hadith collections, full of timeless guidance.”

"All your confusion has guidance in the teachings of the Prophet ﷺ," she said warmly.

Pinpointing the Source of Your Thoughts: Signs Your Brain Is Overloaded

Overthinking Triggers: Internal vs. External

• You’re weighed down by relentless, overwhelming thoughts that won’t let you rest.

• Could these thoughts come from within, or are they shaped by toxic people or your environment?

• Are these whispers irrational, like waswasa (evil suggestions), trying to confuse you?

  
  

Identifying the Source of Your Pain

Is the root of your pain the cruelty, indifference, or betrayal of people around you?

Finding Calm Amid Mental Chaos

• How can you find calm and clarity amidst all this mental chaos?

  
  

  First, you must understand yourself,” she said gently.

  
  

“These obsessive thoughts, this mental chaos they are a form of Waswas ul Qahar

oppressive whispers are a psychological and spiritual attack from Shaytan.”

She continued, “Shaytan works in two major ways:

1. He whispers into the hearts and minds of humans.

2. And he whispers into the jinn, who then influence humans.

   
   

   The Quran says,

"The one who whispers [evil] into the hearts of mankind-From among the jinn and mankind." 

Quranic Verse (Surah An-Nas 114:5-6)

: Guidance through the Hadiths of the Prophet ﷺ

1. Avoid toxic people who disturb your inner peace, as The Prophet Muhammad (ﷺ) said:  

"Whoever acts to please Allah, he becomes free from the need for people's criticism."  

(Sunan al-Tirmidhi, Book of the Description of the Resurrection: 2414)

2. They manipulate thoughts and make you doubt yourself.  

3. They shift blame onto others, leaving you stressed.  

4. True peace comes from staying close to righteous, positive people.  

 Abu Hurairah (رضي الله عنه) reported that the Prophet (ﷺ) said:  

"A person is upon the religion of his close friend, so let every one of you look at whom he befriends."

(Sunan Abi Dawud 4833, Tirmidhi 2378 - Hasan Sahih)  

This Hadith teaches us to stay away from bad people, those who destroy our mental peace, force us to overthink, and in the end, blame us, causing our peace to disappear.

I have a sincere piece of advice for you.

1. Stop Overthinking with Dhikr  

The librarian continued:   

"Shaytan traps you in useless thoughts to drain your energy. Whenever negativity strikes, say:

"أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم"

"I seek refuge in Allah from Satan." 

2. Make good friends:

The Prophet (ﷺ) gave an example of good and bad company:  

"The example of good and bad company is like that of a perfume seller and a blacksmith.

The perfume seller will either give you some perfume, you will buy from him, or at least you will enjoy his pleasant fragrance.

As for the blacksmith, he will either burn your clothes or expose you to his foul smell and smoke."

(Sahih al Bukhari: 5534)

Hamna finally replies, letting the information sink in,

"But, even after all this, I'm stuck in a loop of thoughts and complications.

• Who do I trust?

• When do people change?

• What if I'm wrong?

• These thoughts are not in my control.

I'll never know. And, for how long will I only run from these people who are everywhere?"

Hamna sighs...

Dear readers,

What does Hamna do next? Will she get her answers? Will she earn true peace from her faith? To find out, like, and comment. Continuation, coming soon.

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